“As far as I can remember, I’ve struggled with my identity and my confidence. I’ve always felt there are two parts in me:
The first one is strong, confident and determined with a clear path ahead.
But the other one is scared, full of doubt, insecure and in need of keeping a sense of control at all times.
This caused me to go back and forth with any sort of decision I wanted to make, and I’m not talking about the healthy amount of caution before taking any big step. I would get paralyzed for weeks, for months even, looping frenetically between these two parts of me.
It was exhausting and painful. I could see all I wanted to do, all I wanted to become, yet I was stuck on fear.
I lived with the constant feeling of wasting my life and my potential, with the sombre reality that the projects I had in my head would just die with me. And as much as I tried I could never get anything done.
I felt like a tree in a pot, trying to stretch my roots to grow and not finding any more soil to do so.
At some point, I considered trying to get some sort of diagnosis through a psychologist. I was desperate to fix myself and to finally start to build the life I wanted but which I was unable to create on my own.
This is when I contacted Mari. I already had an interest in Psychedelic Therapy, and I wanted to give a try to Mari’s Guided Psychedelic Session.
I wanted to try to find the answers I knew was already within me but I just couldn’t figure out how to access them.
The first session was pretty intense, and felt like my whole world was shaking, but not in a negative way at all. I was finally able to connect with my own emotions, to let them out, and to make sense of them, and that in itself was already extremely helpful.
We traced down the root cause of the two parts of me and the divided thoughts I was having. They got found much deeper within me than what I had ever dared to look into before, on my own. But now, with the help of the guided session, I could finally access them and be open about it.
After the first session, and after some days of processing my experience, I started to see big differences in my everyday life.
I have become much more aware of my own feelings. I can observe them without judgement or resistance. Also, I have noticed that my mind isn’t divided anymore. I don’t have any infinite discussions with myself when I make decisions.
I feel so light and free, and I’m finally able to start moving forward in my life. I don’t feel scared anymore, but positive, encouraged and excited. Having found out the real cause of my issues has made it easy to understand myself and why I was thinking and behaving the way I did. Also, it has helped me to redirect my behaviour whenever I notice the signs of the old patterns appearing.
Thanks to Mari’s Guided Psychedelic Session, I was finally able to make a huge decision I had wanted to make for years regarding my job.
I have become able to observe and explain to myself and others how I feel. And this has improved my relationships as well.
There are not two different parts fighting in my head anymore, and that makes me feel so aligned with myself and my reality.
A month after the first session, we had a follow-up session and I kept learning more about myself. We kept connecting more dots and discovering new patterns created a long time ago due to traumatic experiences. I feel I finally have got the answers I need to make sense of all the things that kept me stuck since forever.
I feel so hopeful, powerful and happy to finally be able to start living as the “real me”, and for being more connected with myself than ever.”